Sunday, December 03, 2006
I guess that I am not really confused or going through a rough time. I just like to say the things that I am not feeling in order to grab attention or better yet, sympathy. And I get mixed up in hurting people. Why Niles loves me, I have no idea. I can't even hold his hand or write something down without him feeling like it is his fault. And maybe I just should just shut up. And we do talk and I hate it when he says that we are going to end up like Sam and PK, because we aren't. I would never be that selfish, I need attention, but at the same time, I don't want it. I am confusing, and okay, he gets that I don't show my affection in the same ways as every one else, but still. What more con I do? I can't take this sometimes. We just don't talk and when we do, we don't talk about the right stuff. It is so hidden, and we just put it in our blogs. AND IT ISN"T HELPING!!!!! I can't gah!?!?! I am aso lost...
--Kayla

Posted by Kayla @ 10:24 AM